As the days are passing by I notice this world changes tremendously every second, and mind keeps you so busy either in misery or happiness that life we do not get the chance to watch our own lives till the time all the days slip by like sand from hand we only get the tail that too when its too late. Whole life we keep purchasing one trouble for another and one happiness for another very often to realize that old problem was better, any way the fact is nothing is good or better, bad or worse all are experiences which the soul craves for in the physical manifestation of itself, other wise it not possible for to experience all this, in order to realize what it is, we need to know what we are not, and consciously or unconsciously we are applying the ancient formula “neti, neti” to arrive at what we are. An aware soul does it with knowledge, under any situation if the soul is not happy with its performance it discards and goes forward without and remorse or guilt it strives to reach its highest point by realizing that “its not this”. The fluidity of the universe against the fixations of the mind is such and game which is played from unending ways, won in uncountable forms lost in innumerable ways. The lessons learnt are without an end. While being on this wagon of life enlightenment could only be if we could turn into a witness of our own lives, and lives situations, self consists of all if we can understand that self only exists nothing else, because in the life of actions (which can be termed as life of creation) which truly life is unless we deceive ourselves that its not governed by outer circumstances. This self ‘is’, needs nothing but loves all this self is the knower of TRUTH it is the part of the truth. This self is timeless its silent space its nothing, it does not have a beginning and end its all in all.
I wish I could know the above and not only understand, understanding is again a ego play if today I understand tomorrow I may not, if today I love and think that I love tomorrow I may not I strive for the that ISNESS which is not understood but IS.
I know this too that “ I AM” in the same way a flower is.
Chintan helps.
I know sometimes – this is that... but then mind intervenes

Why, do I need the audience, can the need for an audience purely for the audience if not then, I can have my fun in the dark being alone…

Azal